ThistimeIwasveryworried,asIhadstoppedtakingmypillforsome

        sointenseIdidnotevencare.Amademecameagain,andthenasked“

        tillucame,andthenpulledout.

        maybeIjusthadnothadgoodsexfortoolong.

        Itoldhimnottoeiofcourse,hedidnotlisten.

        MaybeIamohose.Lagaregularsexlifeandlonenessmademe

        aarget,andinsteadofdatingandso,AhFaitookashortcutto

        time(well,Idoohavesex,what'sthepointoftakingthe

        justpushindeeperandshothishottomyt!』

        situationthatshewasninallyintended,butendupenjoying.

        areuonthepill?”Ishakemyhead,butinsteadofpullingouthe

        关于地赌场的片段：『AfterIcamethe2ndtimeBjustpushedmedown

        totraioasexobject.

        pills).

        andscreaming.Hemademeeshortly.Maybeitisthesituation,or

        onthesofaandaimhiscockagainstmymessywetpussy.Hedidnot

        anddeep.AfterafewstrokeIfeltlikeingagain.Herideme

        getmeinbedfirst,andusemyweaknessofafraidtoletothersknow

        whoarenotawillingpartygettrickedintosubmittingtoasexual

        me.Ifeelsohumiliatedahoughtofitmakesmesick.』

        和阿辉一伙的事件，造成她心很大的矛盾和不安，和她来往的信件中，类似这

        跟发型设计师的片段：『Istruggledabit,butsoonIwasjustmoaning

        AabandonedFeiandcameover,replagB'splace.IthinkIsawa

        『IamthinkingshouldIcallthefirst4PwithAhFairape.Inthe

        hintofhatredfromhowFeilookedatme,butthenthepleasurewas

        westernworld,thereisagreyareacalledrelut,meaningsomeone

        againasIknewnowIneedprote.』

thoughitwasdifficult,hemaopushitinto

        种心纠结的片段一再的现：

        evenbothertoremovemydress,justliftitupandshoveditinhard

        Luckilymyperiodessometimeafter,andIstartedtakingmypills